The story of me working

This is for my journaling purposes and to share a cool experience, I've never been good at writing so bear with me. Two years ago we knew we would need to do more than just my preschool so after MUCH prayer and fasting (and trying to get the answer I wanted, which was keep doing preschool) I applied to the school district (Jan '07), they hired me right away even though I wanted to wait until the fall of 2007. Again we felt that this was the right decision even though I cried ALL the time about it!! To make this part short I will just say that twice it has been the biggest blessing to us for me to be working and have benefits. Well, knowing how hard it is for me to NOT be a stay at home mom, we are always trying to figure out ways to get me "back home" and this summer was no exception, from the day school was out I was scheming, planning, praying, crunching numbers etc...I figured we had righteous desires and shouldn't faith be enough? This is a tough thing because I have people say to me "just have faith and things will work out." I know that is true. So Tom and I went to talk things over with our fabulous Bishop to get a third party opinion. After talking for a while we came to the conclusion that I should stay in the schools one more year and then look at things next summer...I wanted to bawl my eyes out. I wanted to stay home and try doing daycare or something. So then the Bishop said let's see what the Lord says. Wonderful thing, a priesthood blessing. So I will share some of the things he said. I wish I could remember word for word. He said if Tom and I would work hard this year, the lord would provide a way for me to stay home next year, that my kids would have no negative experiences or memories about me working, but that it would be a positive thing to have their mom at their school, and the Lord would send guardian angels to be with my kids while I was working (yes, I was crying). I cannot tell you what a comfort that blessing was. All my fears were addressed and I felt such peace. It was a truly wonderful experience. I feel so blessed to have the priesthood in my life, and what a great man our Bishop is! (The Bishops in our church do not work for any money, they volunteer their time and talents.) I have such an appreciation for all the moms out there who do not have the luxury of staying home with their kids and for single parents. I really believe the Lord watches over us and helps us do the things we have to do. So hopefully, if the Lord can help my faith, next summer I will be having another baby and staying home with the 4 beautiful babies He has already given me.